open & closed

They say,
that when one door closes
another opens.

They say,
that everything that happens,
happens for a reason.

They say,
that when you fall
you must always get back up.

They say so much.
So many optimistic words,
so many promises of healing,
…joy

What they don’t say,
is that it aches,
that it breaks you apart
from the inside out.

They tell you to close the door
and look ahead to what
lies before you.

But they don’t tell you,
that closing the door
takes something from you.

They don’t tell you,
that you leave a part of yourself
behind in the process.

I’ve learned to take everything
they say
and make
my own decision.

I closed the door
for myself this time.
Closed it to heal my own heart.
And the most amazing door
Opened.

Opened to a future
that made sense,
that held purpose,
held love,
…joy

They tell you, that good things
come to those who wait.
That patience is a virtue,
that everyone will one day
open the door to what they’ve
been waiting for.

It was for your heart, I waited.
And it was the door to you
that finally brought all the pieces
together.

They say,
that when one door closes,
another most certainly
opens.

memories & hope

For the woman who has cherished each one of us...

my beautiful Grandma.

It was somewhere in between
watching her soul go ahead,
and watching her body fight to stay,
that we felt hope…

Tears of sadness,
at the memories laid behind us.
Tears of joy,
at the hope that lay before us.

We were in between celebration
and mourning.
But we had hope.

In everything that came to pass,
from here on out,
we would carry the memory of
her life,
her love,
and her laughter.

And we would not only
find ways to honor her
memory,
but keep it alive with us.

This was her legacy…
A circle of the love,
that she had instilled in each of us.
A unit of the strength,
that came from the woman
she had always been.

It was in her memory,
we found the most hope.

To live with a purpose
she would be proud of,
a love that would challenge hers,
and a willingness to laugh
that would bring a smile
to the angel she now was.

We are her legacy,
finding our footing…
In between memories and hope