burning,
breathing,
aching.
Staring out an open window,
seeing nothing but
the portrait of a night sky.
An embrace of just who
I really am now.
Intriguing how I can be so [whole]
during the day
and feel so - empty -
at the end of it.
I’ve convinced myself
I’m okay.
Convinced myself
I can survive.
But it’s at night,
when the distractions fade,
that I realize how
much of me
was tied into you
How much of my heart
was kept alive by your love.
And how much of my soul
was defined by the role you
held in my life.
It’s now,
at night…
that I feel the loss
that I feel the betrayal.
And I pray for the day
that I can lie in bed
and feel [whole] again.
seeing nothing but
the portrait of a night sky.
An embrace of just who
I really am now.
Intriguing how I can be so [whole]
during the day
and feel so - empty -
at the end of it.
I’ve convinced myself
I’m okay.
Convinced myself
I can survive.
But it’s at night,
when the distractions fade,
that I realize how
much of me
was tied into you
How much of my heart
was kept alive by your love.
And how much of my soul
was defined by the role you
held in my life.
It’s now,
at night…
that I feel the loss
that I feel the betrayal.
And I pray for the day
that I can lie in bed
and feel [whole] again.
MO,
ReplyDeleteI hope you know how deeply, internally, understand this without words.
Know that you are NOT alone, no matter what it feels like. I am always here to listen, to talk, to be.
Love you!
Me
Thank you my dear :) These are old emotions, long since healed from, but I just felt like they needed to be shared.
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