awake & dreaming

There’s a place between awake and dreaming, when your mind has no control. When the things you desire in the depths of your soul still linger as reality struggles to take over

It’s in this moment,

when I am still wrapped in the warmth of the subconscious, that I see you.

You’re presence is strong, your face unknown, but your embrace stays with me through the day.

I feel like such a foolish girl, dreaming of a man I have never met. Wondering what it would be like to have the man I love wrapping his arms around me, welcoming me with his smile, whispering my name.

Foolish because I do not get such a luxury.

For the man I am bound to is a man I have never met before. I know it is our custom. I know it is my duty, and yet I can’t find it in myself to feel anything but sadness.

I dream of you.

I wish I only had the chance to know who you were. But I know in my heart that should I ever meet you I will only feel more sadness at the idea of never being yours fully.

I wish for you…